Reasoning with God - Coming to Terms with Atheism and Arrogance

Dear Lord, dear Lord, dear Lord, hear my prayer,

I need You, I need to remember it is not all about me,

but how do I walk the line?

How do I strut the high wire of my pride

and also know that I am as nothing in Your Greater World,

but still I touch Your divinity when I vault through the echoes of my endless mind,

becoming lost in the infinity my ideas, for there is no end to our imagination,

which is really Your Grand Imagination, Your Great Intelligence active in me,

when I let go of thinking I am separate from You,

for the more I see how intimately You have created this world and us,

and how You woven the perfection of this miracle we are in,

the more patience I can allow myself,

the more eager I am to see how your marvelous landscape

changes in impossibly small steps,

defying me to observe how You blend Day into Night,

Spring into Summer, each tiny increment of Your Timeless Time,

bubbling and tumbling over each other, like the froth of an ocean wave

making it's way up the shore, flowing and ebbing, breathing in and breathing out,

a harmony we do not comprehend, because we are woven so deeply into it,

we cannot stand back far enough to see it,

and even if we could define our reality without seeing ourselves in it,

Where would we stand Then and Who would we Be?

If we divorce our infant understanding from Your Great love

and kick ourselves out of the Garden, declaring we do not want to live in Your faith,

and Your Spiritual and Supernatural World hold no interest for Us,

because:

We do not believe in anything except what our senses tell us,

We do not believe in anything except our own adult abilities, and we do not owe anything to anybody;

And if we do all of these things, are we then free?

Can we move about the cabin freely, knowing we fly only by our own power,

and there is nothing more to life, than what we can see with our eyes?

We are untethered to anything more than ourselves,and we travel free, owing no debts, for we sprang like a Jack in the Box out of nothing, and everything is emptiness and can be expressed by a mathematical equation,

And we 'believe' we will solve the mystery of our origin

by peering out into space and back into time,

we believe we will see our eventual destiny?

And all these things we do   are solely because of our own intelligence and will,

which we inherited from no one,

and the universe is a big clock, free of soul or intention,

and everything has a cause and effect, including atheism,

and lastly, there is nothing we cannot know, 

except ourselves when we deny our Connection to You.